Revision. As I read this section from Ballenger, he pegged me in the first page. I have frequently felt that attachment to my draft that I worked so hard for, resentful of the expectation that I would re-write any of it. I have been heard to cry out "I wrote it how I wanted it the first time!"

With time, and much effort, I have gotten better about this. It is still not something I look forward to, but for different reasons -they mostly being the sheer ammount fo work my papers need. I know my drafts have weaknesses. Probably a lot of them as I do most of my writing late at night, after work. Having just been returned my argument paper, I heard the comment echoed in the reading "sound's more like a report."

I think my struggle with this could be coming from two main places. One; that I am not sure how much background information to provide, and I want to use all of the sources that I worked for, so I used it all. Two; that I had trouble, between lack of sleep and the large amount of time between my opportunities to write, finding and keeping my focus. In my ethnography, it developed as I wrote it, and I'm sure it's still a bit vague. In my argument, I'm not sure it surfaced at all.

But these are opportunities for me to improve the drafts. I feel like I'm standing on the threshold of actually looking forward to revising. I've gone from resisting making changes to the work I slaved over, to being proud that I can improve it and make it even better.